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The greatest words would still fail me now
These emotions I cannot describe
I want to be where I don't need to hide myself
And remain there until the end of time

The gods play games with mortal hearts
As the carousel goes 'round
As I looked on,
I saw the crowds who gathered walk away

Lyrics from Illusion by VNV Nation

I know it's hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don't want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you're human after all
The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand. Please, don't cry now

Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, please don't leave here
I don't want you to hate;
For all the hurt that you feel,
The world is just illusion, trying to change you

Being like you are, well this is something else
Who would comprehend? But some that do, lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them
That's not what I believe, and it doesn't matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last, but I'm still not sure
But what I do know, is to us the world is different
As we are to the world but I guess you would know that

Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, please don't leave here
I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, oh please don't leave here
I don't want you to change;
For all the hurt that you feel,
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you

Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, please don't leave here
I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, oh please don't leave here
I don't want you to change;
For all the hurt that you feel,
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you


Nothing more to say ........

Church has been desicrated ...
Hurt will not heal ....

The title "Broken wings" is from me, I always refer to people that help other people as giving them the wings they need to fly in life ...
Currently some one has Broken Wings :'(

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In the middle of darkness there is a light

Fist things first ...

For those expecting the second part of the lil story I started last journal, I am sorry ... I have lots of bits written down but so far the ideas have not coalessed into something that A. reads well and B. would fit into a journal ... so I have to fill in the blanks and then fit it to a journal ... or I can post it in my art account ... Hell me doing lit ? my school teachers would turn in thir graves .. if they could find then LOL ... This is one of the reasons that this journal has taken a lil while to get up .. I was working on the story....

OK on to business ...

Sorry for the crappy update to the journal but I will get a fresh one up in a few days .. so please bear with me ...

I really REALLY wanna thank everyone for the wonderful comments on the HDR stock and the Hogwarts/Castle Dracula/Unseen Univercity stock of recent .. I think I am gonna have to go some to really out do myself withthat .. sorta shot myself in my foot LOL .. Also thanks for the wonderful support on the new draft of prints I have posted up ... Some more to come next week too so hold on

As the delightful `Elandria points out in her journal it is my birthday next Thursday ... No I aint telling you how old unless she tells you how old she is next year so go and ask her LOL .. So we and *Amazonofexeter are heading down to London for a few days (fingers crossed the weather holds out rey if so I hope to have some cool shots (and stock) when I return (as I am sure Lanny will too .. or at least some new props and costume stuff to work with

So I suppose its gonna be .. See you guys in a week have a good tiem without me and do me some stunning artwork. I really look forward to what you guys come up with

Oooo and while I am away go here -> [link] these guys really are something. If you like the sound of Hungrey Lucy or Collide you will be very impressed . Or here [link] to download their free MP3 album have fun with these guys they really are a good band

Had a weekend out with Lanny and John doing various bow baced shenanigans ... Yep Last week was the Robin Hood Pageant down at Hawkstone in Shropshire, this time I camped over for 2 nights .. damn I forget how cool it was to camp out under the stars ... Just wanna say thansk to both Lanny and John and also ALL of the Wolfshead Bowmen for having me and making the weekend so fun

Other than that its my birthday in about 2 weeks so for the heck of it I will be heading London way with Lanny, Lee and John should be coming up to join us there for a few days of drinking, photos, drinking, shopping, drinking and stock oh and did I mention drinking ... I have a few targets in mind of stock locations (see how nice we are to you all we go on holiday to get you stock) I might try and make it over to St Pancrass and try and get the entrance to Platform 13 2/4 for the Potterheads out there just cos I am nice that way, but trust me .. what we have in mind should give some nice stock


Short and sweet I know but I have been sat here trying desperately to think of stuff to put in the journal to make it cool but failed miserably ...


Ok video for the month (apart from the other one ) [link] went and saw these lil monkeys back in July for a lil extra birthday preesie for Lanny .. these guys are F**KING amazing live and Rainbow was Chicken Oriental ...

I wanted to do another video post that I adore but DA F**ks up the url ... so you have to do this manual ...
1. Go to YOUTUBE
2. put in a serach for VNV Nation.
3. Click on the top link which should be for Illusion (the one with Andy Huang's Dollface video in it).
4. Sit back and be amazed, moved, cry, stunned, shocked.
5. When finished, take a deep breath, maybe your world WILL carry on the same but you know have been touched.

Last but not least [link]

Just a quick not to say thanks you so much and a big hug to all the new peeps watching me and for all the new fves on the HDR stock .. I really do appreciate it honest so I just wanted to let you know just incase you think am being ungreatful .. 's all round

Laterz



Holy mother of Mary y'all been busy bees aint ya ... Another huge Huge HUGE thank you to evey one out there Today

has reached 15,000 page views ... Damn i remember when I was happy to get this amount of pageview on my whole account but on one dev :S ... god I am so damn chuffed and without you guys out there .. Iwouldn't be here .. so as muchas I can't give you all a hug please help me out here and hug yourself and say "this is from Causty" .....

Get your ass over to cos we have been posting some lovely Lanny based stock for you to use.

When you have had your fill of scrummy Lannyness then go think on this (more for the peeps in the U.K. than anywhere else but if your bored you know where we will be) On Sat Sept 26th 2009 weather permitting I will be heading for the faboulous ruins of Fountains Abbey up in Yorkshire, I have also been told that Lanny herself will be attempting to get up there ... So if you by any chance are in the area and are at a loose end of what to do then feel free to come and annoy ... I mean say hi ... Its one of the "Fountains at night" things so they turn on the flood lights and stay open longer you know we'd love to see you .. I'll post more news closer to the time so keep an eye on here

This journal will probably change some what over the next day or so cos I will come up with some stuff to put in it

Church has been desicrated ...
Hurt will not heal ....



-=d^_^b=-

In the middle of darkness there is a light

An inky gloom and distant memories swam in his head, a fierce pain threatening to split it in two. His hands seemed to swim in the greasy puddle in the alleyway where he found himself alone, the distant sounds of the city buzzed away on the edge of his consciousness. How he got here, at this time, he could not tell. He tried to stand but the world seemed to violently shift below his feet and his vision sickeningly defocused as he pitched noisily into a pile of detritus at his side. The pain in his temples and his breath, shallow and raspy, he descended into darkness again.

A low buzz, disembodied voices, filtered into his semi conscious mind. As he tried painfully to open his eyes, they were assaulted by the stark brightness of this new reality. Fuzzy forms moved purposefully in the clinical world that seared his senses. He screwed his eyes tightly trying to protect himself from the glaring room, the sharp smell of chemicals, like that of an operating theatre, invaded his nostrils. His limbs were bound tightly. He pulled at his constraints trying fruitlessly to free himself. The muffled voices seemed to buzz closer now as if interested in his activity. He felt a hand on his shoulder and he reacted with animal-like agility, pulling away as far as his tethers would allow. Staring blankly though closed lids, he tried desperately to free a limb, to escape somehow from where he could not tell. He felt a strong hand grasp at his arm holding him down as something sharp tore at his skin. His mouth forming silent screams, he tried without success to fight off the unseen assailant. A warm, numbing sensation seeped through his arm and into his body, the acrid taste of metal flooded into his mouth as his mind slowly clouded to black.

Hard outline slowly formed within his blurred vision, harsh edges delineating his current environment. Slowly the dark room coalesced into somewhere he could understand; plain, stark, grey concrete, devoid of anything except the black glass window facing him and the chair that he had been securely strapped into.

An electronic voice invaded his head as if the walls, themselves, were talking to him,
“Welcome...”

Silence, then the walls spoke again,
“You have been a hard man to find.”

Thoughts swam as he, vainly, tried to piece the scattered jigsaw of his life together. Recent events constantly flooded back in to blot out the wisps of his past, as if his mind was trying to forget.
He tried to form word, his mouth sticky and dry,
“Where have I been ? Who are you ? Where am I ? .... Who am I?””


Seconds seemed to stretch into hours until the blackness was cracked by the distorted voice.
“You are the new Black ........”




Church has been desicrated ...
Hurt will not heal ....

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-=d^_^b=-

In the middle of darkness there is a light

Christmas quickly approaches and another tumultuous year draws to a anticlimactic end with one final spurt of glory I finally get Lanny into a studio photo session and yes yours truly swaps camera for the catwalk :-



And my delectable side kick



Also check out her account `Elandria for her new stock yummeh and the photographer is quite good too

Sorry, also, for the last few weeks, I had promised that I would do more on the stock front myself, but life (that pesky thing that exists away from the computer) sorta got in the way of stuff. I have about 4 or 5 packs including a rather nice crypt pack for the club .. I will try and see if this can be available before Christmas but if not then you can feast on Lannys pics and or mine till I get myself sorted. I have not given up I have just hads a very full diary these last few weeks and with changes in work I don't have as much time in the evenings, but don't worry it will all be coming soon trust me

Decorating is sorta done .. Just white washed the walls to make it look a lil prettier till after Christmas for now need to get the walls skimmed :S but that can all wait till the new year, I have made a start and thats what counts

Have a few projects too for next year so hang in there and I hope to get something going I feel a lot better in myself than I have done for a while, though the way I feel atm I think some of these projects will be put off while I run round in front of the cammy LOL .... Just tell me to stop it and I will get back where I belong, behind it .. PLEASE ! ! ! ! LOL

Also starting to build a new set of priorities for the shopping list there is another re-enactors fayre the end of Feb 2009 so I am going to try and have some cash then to fill in some of the blanks on the knight stuff then with 2009 round the corner we SHALL have a summer this year .. Hell Liverpool castle folly is only up the road so that can be used when Lan is around .. Have some other plans too these are for me to know about atm but I would like one or 2 of them to come off successful this year

I just wanna still wish ALL my friends on da and in real life that I have met through this site, all the artists that use my stock and jut coo at the places we get to see in the task of providing the stock too .. A very merry Christmas .. It’s been a stressful year again but here’s looking to the future with a spring in the step and a light heart

A few good things are happening atm and I hope these good things carry on *lifts a glass of wine* heres to the New Year and to all your hopes and dreams too .. You all know who you are

For tonight ... GOD is a stock provider .............. [link]

Ooops nearly forgot I went and got Ballistic the other weekend [link] I have to admit this was the first time I stumped up the cash for a publication I had been watching for a lil while (mainly cos the shop I saw it in was way below the standard price) .. I am seriously impressed .. trust me if you wanna have some stunning artwork to show your none DA friends than get buying this (and other Ballistic books) publication ... YOU WILL NOT BE DISSAPOINTED.

Well till next time ..... C'YA ! ! ! !



Church has been desicrated ...
Hurt will not heal ....

[link]

-=d^_^b=-



In the middle of darkness there is a light